I know that nobody cares about me or cares for me. I used to get depressed on this but I finally realized?

that it gives me a huge amount of liberating freedom. I have nobody judging me or imposing thier beliefs. I have creative freedom in my art. If I can be ate peace alone..that would be a great life. I'm not sure if this is possible. i get urges for female companionship but I know that it has always ended in emotional heartache, feelings of guilt, or psychological imprisonment. I want to be free of a social life. I'm only 26 but I'm pretty sure of this. I have no family or friends...so really nobody..just bad relationships